colored ink today
another place i like to look for the pictures,
in ink splatters.
i love messy. messy everything. messy art. messy gardening. even messy kids. making a mess in fun. finding art in it, is most excellent.
i started one picture that turned into a princess having her hair done by a t-rex. yes, sounds cool–but looked “meh!”
while i was doing it, fidgit, my number one minion, asked me to draw him a picture.
i asked him what he wanted a picture of.
he said, “a whale.”
i LOVE humpback whales. i’m not great at realism, but i can do a half-decent humpback whale (thanks to fidgit teaching me how. he is also to credit for my squid pictures.)
so i soaked a piece of paper. then i splattered it with black ink. then some more black ink. more. then i let it dry for most of the day. then i drew in the whales. then i painted the world with ink. then i painted the water. then i painted the whales. then i used my pen some more.
to recap: ink, with more ink, followed by ink & ink & ink.
i finished the last character profile painting last night at one in the morning as my ex-husband held our wide-awake baby and glowered at me. that was simon starbuckle’s painting–perhaps my favorite & the one i am most happy with. maybe i should have my ex glare at me while holding the baby for all my work. ha!
i finished. despite depression. despite thoughts of–why don’t i just drop out of school? despite feeling like i’m a fraud to call myself an artist. despite four kids and an ex plotting against my project. i finished the four character profiles. now i have one more of the big paintings to finish before my critique tomorrow at 1:20. will it happen? stay tuned. meanwhile i have to give a presentation today in another class. meanwhile i have the toddler hitting the baby. the cat attacking the nine year old. and the six year old screaming at me that i hate him. dishes to do. dinners to cook. toilets to clean. diapers to wash….
my watercolor professor says i need the fabled “room of my own.” yes, that, perhaps, and a visit from mary fucking poppins.
i am happy with how three out of four of characters look, but i am struggling with the looks of my heroine, gertrude buttons. i spent last night playing with watercolors and ink and drew so many faces. after i added thick lashes and eyeliner to my previous picture of gertrude buttons, i felt i was on to something. i also was kind of satisfied with this picture of her and her co-star, harvester jones. i just feel i haven’t quite gotten her right. it has not clicked for me yet.
meanwhile, plots are starting to develop in my head. i want it to be fantastic, yet real. which means i need to pull some serious talent out of my butt.
we’ll see how that goes.
that only took forever.
i have fallen out of my groove & really need to climb back in.
moses is finishing up her thoughts on motherhood and zombie fighting as she sits around a late night kitchen table with her fellow squatters in a dystopian society complete with zombies & cannibals.
i need to work on my splatter technique. i want to try using a straw. i envy ralph steadman’s skill with ink & brush. i will have to practice. also…i still don’t know how i feel about my morlockesque zombies, but….
i finally finished a new page!