if i could change the world

i am so bothered by the news of racism i see every morning in my facebook feed (which is my news source–i follow several news groups, etc.) my heart hurts with every report. i see that trump is stirring up even more of it. and i am deeply worried. it is such a destructive direction in which our country is headed.

so i keep trying to work on this comic. kind of more of a memoir/thought comic than my usual. so i am struggling with it. i am not sure of what kind of illustrations to use. if there will be dialogue. things like that. i have been playing around with lighter illustrations to offset the heavier subject matter. also, doing stories close to my actual experience (aka memoirs) is difficult for me. i thought maybe more cartoon-y would relieve that a bit.

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i did start to ink a page. i went with this format. i think it will work. with the amount of text i have, i think it will be four…maybe five, pages.

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so i’ve started! even though my minions work against me…(aren’t they supposed to work for me?) i keep giving them lectures on how i need me-time to get things done. maybe one day…. instead they are always on top of me–fighting for attention. and my comics are the ones who suffer for it.

one day…one day.

moses jones…the new episode begins

page 39 begins episode three.

it is a very light page, compared to other pages, and text heavy. i have used text heavy pages in the past…but i think there will be a few more in a row. maybe. this whole episode might be text heavy.

i usually cover the page with ink. grey tones. but i left this one white. i am trying to decide if i like it or not.
i feel like lately mojo always has katana, ready & cocked.
usually aimed at zombies…but now dusty has her wary.

which brings me to real life where dusty is romancing me again…and i am wary. life is weird. which is why i make comics….

stark raving whimsy

here is the first installment/draft of stark raving whimsy, my newest graphic novel project. yay! i created the character of bluejean back when i was in a watercolor class. she was a side character in my story trials of the moonfish. however, i became more interested in her than i was in the lead character (gertrude buttons). so i have been playing with her image & story ever since. with my intermediate drawing class, i get the opportunity to work on her. when my professor suggested a more encompassing story to incorporate my images into, i knew it would have to revolve around bluejean.

the storyline is still peculating within my psyche & subconscious, but i have determined that she is a pirate. and a storyteller. and that her own world is dark & fanciful–as well as her stories. but that is as far as i have gotten. i like to give stories life & then follow them to see where they go. i am very excited to see where bluejean & her stark raving whimsy take me.

meanwhile…zine fest is on saturday & i still haven’t actually made my zines. okay, that sounds really bad…but! i have all the pages in my email. i just need to get to a printer. i loitered around in the uw computer lab…but then decided to go to my neighborhood cooperative press. so i will be going to class late today in order to stop & make zines on the way. i could go before class, but that would mean taking 3 or 4 of the minions with me. okay, my brain just exploded even thinking about that. so, i have to wait for dusty to get home–he comes home in time for me to go to class–then i will go make zines. then i will go to class.

and i am very excited about zinefest. it’s on halloween and i’m all like–would i be a geek to dress up for zinefest? then i’m all like…wait, it’s zinefest. i’m already a geek. and what’s one more nail in the coffin?

i’m so cool.

zinefest!

(ps. dusty came up with the name stark raving whimsyi was playing with calling it dark whimsy or the whimsical nightmare _________ …but fidgit & dusty vetoed both of those ideas…& when i googled them, they were already being used for other stuff by other people. then dusty suggested this when we were talking & the words were there, but not put together yet. so thank you again, dusty! the name feels perfect to me.)

can i call this “process”?

or lack thereof?

i want to practice drawing dusty who will eventually return to the story. this was drawn the upteenth time my kids made me take them outside. i was all like, “i will just draw while they play.” i got the above drawn just as poppy decided to plop down in my lap and nest there. poppy wants to be held. he wants to be nursed. he wants to be outside. usually all three at the same time. which makes it really difficult to draw.

can blogging about my inability to get any drawing done count as process? it is part of the process, in its way. i do get a lot of thinking about moses jones done as i chase, soothe, and distract small children.

dusty is the one who clogs up my thought process with daily drama. so much drama! just to insure his return to the storyline? he is lucky i love him so much that i will not sacrifice his character to a mob of famished zombies.

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look how pretty he is. how am i supposed to resist? i can’t just feed him to the zombies. which, by the way, is not the appropriate way to deal with relationship problems…apparently. i guess you’ll all know if i manage to be mature and make things work with dusty despite our differences by how he plays out in the comic. hopefully, he will not end up as zombie fodder. don’t expect a “happily ever after,” but maybe there can at least be less abandonment and bitterness–& more sex.

my homework

per wikipedia:

Historically katana (?) were one of the traditionally made Japanese swords (日本刀 nihontō?)[2][3] that were used by the samurai of feudal Japan.[4] Modern versions of the katana are sometimes made using non-traditional materials and methods. The katana is characterized by its distinctive appearance: a curved, slender, single-edged blade with a circular or squared guard and long grip to accommodate two hands.

so there is a curve! i did have that right. even though i wasn’t drawing it quite right…. and the handle is supposed to be able to be held with two hands. i have been doing my handles too short. this will be fixed in future pages. madonna the katana will be drawn more accurately. there is always a margin of error with my drawings, being that i skip the pencil & go straight for ink.

historically, i have been terrible at research. i am getting better with age & my desire to be more accurate. when i was younger, i had to luxury of saying, “fuck that,” to most things. now i am reaping what i sowed. live & learn, folks. research. i should have paid more attention to what a katana was–being that i chose such a specific weapon. i didn’t. so now i have some inaccurate pages. but, fortunately, my comic is still young. there is a lot that might change.

like who is telling the story?

on the first couple pages of this comic, it seemed to be that moses jones was narrating the story. however, the narration moved to a third person stance from there–and was told in dialogue only. in the pages to come, i was going to have story being told in ways other than dialogue, using narration. i need to figure out–is moses telling the story? or a separate narrator?

so! i need to practice drawing katanas. and i need to figure out who my narrator is.

and, of course, i need to get my ass in gear & draw page 30. i dug up the short story on which i am basing the next several pages. now i just need to figure out out what goes in which panels…after i figure out the narration, that is.

ps. when i googled “katana” my last posting of moses jones: apocalyptic mama was the second entry on the page after wikipedia. did google do that just for me, or does that happen when anyone googles it??

moron my process

moron my process

i thought it would be neat to put up what can be called my first draft before i draw my comic. i write out the story. figure out how i want the text broken up. then i put it on paper. this is what the writing out looks like. i also use this sheet to check the darkness of my ink. and for this page, i actually did a thumbnail sketch–which worked out nicely. i think i will keep that up. i doodled moses’s tattoo on here as well. mostly, my process is sitting & staring & waiting for inspiration. usually while watching the daily show or arrested development. things will appear in my head as i sits and as i thinks. inspiration, if you will.

failing that, i will lay down & nurse a baby–then inspiration is sure to strike.

as you can see. i don’t do much for a first draft. i prefer the raw look of my comic. if i draw the lines too neatly on the first inking, i go back after the second inking and scratch it up a bit.

i was going to post the previous page of writings & doodlings as well, but my toddler peed on it when i left it laying on the floor for too long.

moses jones–page three

moses jones--page three

okay. page three. i’m going to try to show the story rather than tell the story. i mean, i know what is going on and could just narrate the fuck out of this…but i would rather bring this story to life. it’s going to be a challenge. i have an idea in my head–can i translate it to the page? i’ve always had trouble with that transition…from my head to the page. i hope i can do it. i really enjoy spending my spare moments thinking about the whys & hows of zombies…in the scope of a comic, that is.
so here is page three. hopefully leading up to some more characters and some more plot development. it may not come fast. i like posting something every day, but my every day can be quite challenging. i tried to do some ink painting while my toddler was awake today, & i had to keep moving my page as i painted on it because she was relentless in her pursuit of my paint brush. then the baby i was wearing on my chest woke up and things really got rough. so i leave my thinking to the daytime & my actual inking to the nighttime…which is also when i need to do my geography & writer’s workshop homework….
big sigh….
postings may be a bit sporadic as i try to get this party started….
stay tuned.