just me and my lizard brain…page two

i think i am exorcising some demons with this comic.
which is good.
i’m not sure how long this comic will end up being…
if it will be just one story,
or a continuing story.
but right now it is strong in my head
so i figure i should go with it.

i like the way the art turned out. i like using a different font. i developed the font i letter with in moses jones & other works in like..what..1998? 1999? so it is fun to use a different way of lettering with this comic. then, in a tribute to ralph steadman, i mess it up a bit. i like messy.
messy is fun.

also! i may have mentioned that i am putting my quixotic poetry together into a collection. well, i decided to put ALL of the poetry i can find that i have written over the years into that collection and to maybe try to find a publisher? maybe self publish? maybe enter it into a contest? but, fuck it, i am doing something. all that raw emotion & terrible verse just begs to be ridiculed by the public (haha!)

and i still want to be doing more ink brush painting. i think i need more paper. maybe that’s what my block is with that.
so i need to find an art store.
does anyone know any independent art stores in central illinois?

izzy & maeve

maybe this page looks rough because i feel rough.
another depressed & anxious day in the life
& i’m all like,
“since i feel like crap & a big dumb
failure…i should work on my comic about the destructive voices
that tell me i am crap
& a big dumb failure.”
so here is the very first page of
just me & my lizard brain

i am actually pretty excited about it, regardless of my depression & anxiety. what better way to deal with feeling like crap than to write a comic about feeling like crap?
i’m a genius.

or not.

it is yet to be determined. (though a quiz on facebook today told me i am a genius)

interesting side note. my main character is named after my very first therapist. maeve. what a cool name, right? it got vetoed as a baby name, so i’m naming this creation in her honor.

i hope you enjoy it. when i am feeling more centered & zen, i will try to do some chinese ink brush paintings of the cornfields i see all around me.
maybe some stark raving whimsy when i am–um–stark raving whimsical?
and when i am in the mood for fighting zombies, we will see more of moses jones!

 

 

upcoming pages of moses jones or the end of the world as we know it

yesterday i did some layout of my text to decide what would go in which panels. today i did some thumbnail sketches. hopefully i will get a chance to paint in panels later today. i also read through my journal. i have some good ideas & cool art in there. i need to use that more often–read it–inspire myself.

so, anyone who’s been reading this is aware that i am between homes, turns out i forgot to pack the rapidograph ink i use to refill my pens, and both of my pens ran dry today. all i have is my sumi ink that i use for painting in ink shadows & shades. throwing caution to the wind, i filled my high maintenance pens with an ink they aren’t used to.

so far so good. no riots. no protests. no refusals to draw.

i guess time will tell.

all in all i am feeling more settled in this home of mine–for two more weeks–this home with its good vibe & comfortable fit. i dread going back to the house of ex-in-laws. mostly for how it causes dusty’s bad behavior to amplify. but after that week with dusty’s kin, i will be in a home that will be my home for at least a year.

although the neurotic part of me believes something awful will happen in the next three weeks that will prevent our new home from ever becoming a reality. my somewhat psychic abilities are unable to see past the next three weeks & that is freaking me out. i know i sound crazy when i say that…but that doesn’t make it any less unsettling for me.

don’t tell anyone that!

yikes.

maybe society as we know it is about to crash & send us into a dystopian society full of zombies & cannibals…and me with only a baseball bat.

or i will get more pages done. move into a new place. make a second zine. attend zine fest. be discovered. and somehow save the world from certain doom.

the squatters

the squatters

so i always tell my kids that if they want to get better at something–they need to practice…& i have noticed that over the past 8 years of being a mom–i have gotten really good at picking up toys & doing dishes (insert sad sigh here)…. but what i want to be good at is comics. so i have to keep moving forward with my moses jones. i am not sure how i feel about this picture. i messed up a few times…i had to stop to put a baby to back to sleep once or twice…my paint brush & i had a few disagreements…and my lettering is crooked. however, i have not put up a new moses jones picture in several days. i thought about putting up more confusion perfume, but then just felt like i was re-running the comic strip “cathy”….

so here are a handful of new characters for moses jones to bounce off of. hopefully as i keep putting out pages, my technique will improve. with confusion perfume & other previous comics, i did “penciling” before i inked. for some reason that process–though prudent–did not suit me. so i do all my pictures with ink first, then some more ink, and i finish with ink. as i joked in a comment on one of my posts, i am used to living with my mistakes. i like the permanency of ink. i never have enjoyed pencils…or erasers. i would rather do a whole page over than to play it safe & pencil the image in first…yes, i live on the edge….

so here is a new page. another roll call page. hopefully page four will not be too far behind. even though it is only like the third week of classes, i have given up on my geography class and can devote more time to my comic…. i wish! i am too neurotic about my grades & about not being the “good student” i always have been (also known as the “good employee”)…. i really do wish i could just tell my geography class to go fuck itself…but i am a bit o.c.d. & cannot do that. so i will daydream about moses jones as i try to read about southeastern asia.