gertrude buttons

i did this just now in my class.  it felt right.  i want her to be severe but not scary.  sexy in her own rights–though not necessarily a beauty.  i still haven’t figured out the plot of my comic…but i have my characters.  and if i did them right, they should help me write the plot.

i have been seriously considering switching from a creative writing major to an art major.  i feel there is so much more for me to learn about art–so much more i want to learn.  i love the idea of spending my days kicking around inside the art building.  also, i feel that art really helps my words come to life & my ideas come to life.  i love writing.  every aspect of it.  but i think i translate better to art.  this may sound shallow, but art offers me the immediate feedback and validation that i crave so badly as a passionately damaged individual.  i feel more at home in art.

though i find i still see myself as a fraud when i look at myself through other artist’s eyes–the same as when i am among other writers.  could be i may never feel genuine until i let myself feel so.