dusting off cobwebs for an update….

i have nothing new to post unless you want to see pages and pages of apartment listings that probably won’t work out and we will have to live out of my mazda5 squatting near the house of some crazy relative or another.

sigh.

i want to be working on moses jones or any project rather than sitting and looking at craigslist and dreading having to actually call people about apartments and possibly suffer some sort of rejection or another…. (i’m terrified of phones & of rejection.)

i need to do laundry. i need to clean the bathroom. i need to interact with my children other than screaming, “knock it off unless you want to be homeless!” as i cruise craigslist on my laptop while they beg for food. how dumb is it to yell at your kids to stop yelling so much?

but! when i have to get off craigslist to nurse poppy, i do read books on how to be a better, more successful artist & writer. i did not finish the gift by Lewis Hyde. i liked the concept, but it became too convoluted to continue. then i read bird by bird by anne lamott. i really enjoyed it. i googled her though and was alarmed to see she had made some insensitive comments about one transsexual which had been then determined to mean she was insensitive to all transsexuals. i am totally in support of transsexualism, but having known several men who were conveniently women and then men again–and not having much knowledge about the whole caitlyn jenner situaltion–and having enjoyed her dark sense of humor…i guess i’m willing to cut her some slack. and i did totally enjoy bird by bird. it is a very well written and enjoyable book about writing. then i started reading ignore everybody by hugh mcleod. i didn’t get very far into it. it seemed awfully self-indulgent. though i did like that he was saying doing something different is sure to get you attention. moses jones, is so different that i am having trouble finding my audience. ha! i should be wildly successful…right? maybe i read that wrong…. now i am looking at rework by jason fried & david heinemeier hansson. it is more about business and i almost put it down for this reason. but…i can be an artist and know about business. (i had to tell myself that.) it will not corrupt me. it will not corrupt me. it will not corrupt me.

sigh.

okay, back to the house hunt. you will know i have found a place when i am able to post new stuff again. if you don’t hear from me again it is because i cannot get my scanner to work plugged into my mazda5. ha!

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what keeps me busy

i am so wrapped up in house hunting. i think of little else. plans. back-up plans. panic attacks and deep funks. i hate house hunting. house hunting when four little people are involved is…oh my god…how do i do this? today we are meeting with a single woman who is entertaining the idea of renting part of her home to us. i think about someone else having to live with my children and i find myself thinking, “i don’t even want to live with them–how can i ask a stranger to?”

okay. i don’t always feel this way about the minions. lately is just…special. poppy is grumpy. iggy is grumpy. i am grumpy. we act and react to each other all day long.

meanwhile, in my comic process, i did manage to draw something. just a journal page. but it turned out kinda cool. also, in my quest to be a better artist, i am reading the gift by lewis hyde. it is taking me awhile to read it. just snippets here and there when i’m not wrapped up in needy kids or house hunting. but so far so good. i am finally in the second half which is more applied towards artists. i will let you know what i think.

that’s all i can update you on today. poppy is screaming at me and iggy is screaming at fidgit. yay. good times.